on my mind

Here's what's on my mind today:
 I've been told I'm weird my whole life. and quite frankly-that's fine with me. Because truth is, I would rather be crazy weird, than a strait up BIG DULL DUD.
So yeah I like to live my life a little weird.
-whenever i'm in a car, I pretend like I'm in a music video. example: last night on my way home from my LATE class, "Someone like you" came on the radio and you better believe I could have been adele right then. I was so into it I could feel the tears welling up. Luckily it was dark outside.
-When I'm picking out my outfit in the morning I always think "How can I make my ugly clothes --cute?" hmm
-I LISTEN to lyrics. In fact I would go as far to say I'm a lyric junkie. Some people just like the beat but I like lyrics. If a song doesn't make me FEEL anything, its a goner.
-I have a crush on a truck driver.   uhhhh this is awkard. Okay so to be fair he doesn't (DOES NOT) work for my father. okay? and also he's not overweight or smelly. totally the opposite of what your picturing.
-It gives me a HIGH to make a fool of myself? is that the weirdest thing? but it has t o be MY choice, if that makes sense.
-I have an African braid in my hair that is turning into a dread. Do you think I'm ever taking that sucker out? no way.
-If i'm the only one in the office and the phone rings-I pretend to have  a southern accent. (how obnoxious)
-I respect and look up to people who are their own "breed." I'm attracted to people who don't care what anyone else's opinion of them is.
-I love to make awkward eye contact with strangers. especially at school. just to make them feel a little uncomfortable.

Ya wanna fly you're freak flag?? 

DO IT. 

I dare you.

the time being fearless paid off

Okay so here is just a little story. As you may have prevoiusly read- my word for 2013 is FEARLESS.

 I've been trying pretty hard to incorporate it into my daily life, but sometimes I still get real scared. n-e-wayz

About two weeks ago I added this cute boy on facebook that I had seen at church the week before. sidenote: I do NOT add cute boys on facebook. I always wait for them to add me.(and if they don't, we never become friends.) I'm stubborn like that. Ha so it took some guts for me to just do it.

Well long story short, the cute ended up asking me on a date last Friday and oh my. It was reallllly fun.Like reallllly realllllly fun. okay. you probably get the point.

So I guess I learned a little lesson 

Being fearless (and a little creepy) really DOES pay off!

 My sister annika was kinda enough to take some pics for me in the snow. (yeah, i desperately needed a new profile pic.)

today

Today, is a good day. I feel very happy and content and ready to face the unknowns in my life.
I know this sounds cheezy but after I got home from africa, things just weren't falling into place the way i thought they would. With college and housing and majors and stuff like that.
It took almost two months for me to finally commit to my decision but honestly, I coudln't be more grateful for how things are working out. I feel like I'm where i'm supposed to be right now.

Yes, I live at home. Yes, I'm doing the one thing i said I NEVER would  Yes, I miss the college life of staying up all night. Yes, I crave an adventure almost every day. Yes, I love my classes at the extension. Yes, My job is going swell. Yes, I have the best boss.. in the world. (I may be biased) Yes, I love family bonding time.Yes, I am busy busy and I like life like that. Yes, I am going on a date with the ONE boy I told my mom I had interest in. (anyone else a sucker for a big truck and darling smile? oh, just me then.) Yes, I get to play just dance with my little bro and sis as often as I'd like. Yes, I'm saving my money for a big excursion.Yes, My mama makes me dinner almost every night.

Yes, Life is Wonderful.

Also if you are having a bad day, I have a cure. go watch some Duck Dynasty!! You'll laugh till your tummy hurts. Well, at least I do.

perfect

My Fav.

Guilty Right here

My life long dream

inspiring

 

reminiscing

A few days ago I had got to go through all of my Africa photos to  prepare a little presentation to the old folks of the ward. 

What an unexpected treat.

To be honest, ever since I've been home it's been hard to look at my photos.

Sure, I've shown some to my fam and some close close friends, but I don't scrounge around my "Ghana Love" Folder nearly as often as I thought I would. 

I think it's because when I look at these photos, it all feels so real. I remember I was half a world away living what seemed like a completley different life.

 I remember that the children in the photographs are real and I remember what it was like to hug them and laugh with them.

I remember that they are still going on with day to day life even though I'm not there anymore. 

Grace (one of my favs.) used to always tell me "I miss you so so much when you go back to your country."  

If only she knew how much I was missing her. 

here are just a few that made me smile.

Bernard and I. he was so so ticklish

Christiana, Mercy and Grace

I love that sweet Deborah

Making some jewelry

This would be Grace

Grace insisted she give me a piggy back.

Antoinette and that smile just melt my heart.

My favorite street boys abenezer and prince

Bernard and Christopher. is that the cutest?

my {1} word

I have been contemplating what my one word should be this year for the past 3 ish days.
But I think I finally have it.
wanna know what it is? alright, sure. no problem.

FEARLESS 

/ˈfi(ə)rlis/

Adjective Showing a lack of fear; intrepid.

Synonyms intrepid - undaunted - dauntless - brave - bold - daring -courageous- unafraid

Pretty much sums it up:      This is a word I want to incorporate into 2013 every.single.day.    Fearless about what people may think of me. Fearless about my unknown future. Fearless about reaching out and helping others. Fearless when it comes to making big decisions. Fearless to speak my opinion.  Fearless about growing closer to God. &setting an example. Fearless about following my heart. Fearless about breaking down my "wall." I have a feeling 2013 has some promising days ahead for me.