let go

It's not usually like me to do these kind of posts, but it's honestly more for ME than anyone else. My senior English teacher used to tell me "when you want to know how you REALLY feel about something, write about it" I think that is very profound. & has helped me out A LOT. Maybe it can help someone else out too.

 I like to think of myself as a brave person. Someone who can put my "tough face" on and do what i know I need to. But in reality, it's a lot harder than i could have ever thought. Truth is i have been too scared to do what i've know i needed to do for a long time. I try to say this in the most respectful way-but turns out i had my heart set on a genuine dirt bag. Its a tragic thing because when its YOU, you can't tell. Sure Everyone else can but it's literally like you're blind sided. You put on a smile and say everything is okay. give up important things and push away important people in order to keep this person around and in the end,  it isn't worth it. Someone who truly cares about you wouldn't let that happen. They wouldn't disrespect you or treat you like you aren't good enough for them. But still: you have your mind made up and don't let those seemingly small things get to you.

Until one day, they do. 

And suddenly it hit me. Like a million bricks. 

Everything that everyone had been telling me for so long I could finally see.
I finally realized i didn't needed to be treated like that. I deserved better. 

I knew what i needed to do. 

 Let go. 

Let go of the person that for way too long had brought me down. The person that wasn't helping ME become who i needed to.

It almost seemed too easy, to be so set on what i should do. I never looked back. (and believe me, i was worried i would) But i kept my eyes forward and I can't tell you how happy I've been ever since. It is almost a night and day difference. Life has never been better to me. Sure, somedays it is hard. It's hard to look back on the fun memories and know it can never be that way again. 

But a the same time, it's so exciting. Exciting that things can only get better from here. You put the lord first in your life, everything falls into place exactly how it should. Bottom line.You do your part and everything will be okay. 

and that's my sh-pill. I'm Letting go of that part of my life. I'll try to forget about the mistakes, but never what they taught me.

& I'll be okay in this Big World, I will.

Monday playlist

 1. Merry Happy (Kate Nash)

I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone
I can watch a sunset on my own

2. Someone Like You- Adele 

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

3.Place in this world- Taylor Swift

"I'm alone, on my own and that's all I know

I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh, but life goes on

Oh, I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world"

                                            4.Pretty Girl Rock-Keri Hilson
 
                                               All eyes on me when I walk in,

No question that this girl’s a

10 Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.

Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.

My walk my talk the way I dress It’s not my fault so please don’t trip

5.This is it-Imagine Dragons

Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain-check

I don’t ever want to let you down

I don’t ever want to leave this town

‘cause after all

This city never sleeps at night...

college

Soo I've been meaning to update this things for awhile now.. but it never happened. and now that i actually have time i have NO IDEA what to even write about. I like pictures better then words anyway. It's probably more than you ever care to see.

I LOVE COLLEGE!!

never forget

"And you'll be sorry that you messed with the U.S. of A. Cause we'll put a boot in your A** it's the American way."

p.s sorry about the language mom. but i think this would classify as a time where it's okay.. :)

take a minute

Sometimes life can get pretty crazy. I mean, not a huge surprise. I get so caught up in "to-do lists" and school work, and workouts and worrying about all sorts of junk that when you look at the big picture, really doesn't matter. It's easy to live life without actually LIVING. I hate the reality of that.

Today at work I stumbled (while blog stalking?) the most tender blog I have EVER read. I sat there reading and crying and trying to answer the phones in between without sounding weird. (it was quite the challenge)

But it really made me think. about everything. 

Life is such a precious gift. & i never want to take it for granted. 

So go read it so you can take a step back and realize what is truly important to You. ♥

dennyandwendy.blogspot.com
(ps scroll down to older posts to get the whole touching story)