dusk and summer

"Nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer."

last one

I did it.

 My last summer bucket list item was "ride on the back of a stranger's motorcycle." 

& last night, on the very last night of summer, I did it. It feels good. 

Last night I was in Logan visiting my sista and some of my bffs who are living in the SAME apartment complex i lived in all of last year. It was hard core deja vu.

 But honestly, I was so glad I knew i didn't have to stay in Logan.
although i'm reallllllllly going to miss living in the same town as my sister and bffffs.

 I'm doing exactly what I want to and I'll never look back.

uh uh uh uh

Take a little looksy at this gem that arrived in the mail today! only cost me $72.72 to have it overnight-ed. bargain? pssh. Yeah right.

 But I was too happy when i got it to even think what it cost me. Literally took it out of the envelope and hugged it as tight as i could.

 

& yes it's 2 in the morning but this is reallllllly exciting to me. okay? 

last weekend

The last weekend of summer is always a really depressing time to me. I start feeling homesick and reminiscent and absolutely dread the fall rolling in. 

For the past two years i have been moving over this weekend and can i just tell you how nice it is NOT to be doing that? I think the fact that I will be seeing a different part of the world this fall instead of sitting in a classroom is the one thing that is keeping me from breaking down about summer ending.

But before i get too sad I still have three more days to live to the absolute fullest!!!

bucket list

My Summer Bucket list has been extremely successful this year. like extremely. I have done almost everything I have wanted to. Buttttt there is just one more thing. & It's a big one. & it's important. & I think I have to do it tonight if I want to cross it off the list. also it takes a lot of guts. so i'm nervous. But I've gotta do it, & I will. (Putting on my brave face as i type this) 

ps I'll share my bucket list items as soon as the last one gets crossed off!

pooool days

Well this place was my home for the summer once again and the truth is, I'm not quite ready to say goodbye to it. Safe to say this year has been my favorite. (but then again i say that every year) 

I love that my coworkers are so fun and crazy. we laugh all day and play all night. 

what could be better? 

 

Watchin the summer sun fall out of sight

Gabe taught me "the cool kids" pose. i owe him big time.

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clearly we are the cool ones

"show your bum a little"

LOVED teaching navy k in mom &tots

typical jameson

"We were so alive never felt more free"

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#summertimecrush #youngerthanme #SUEME

famous awkward hug all summer long

Jay is our very fav.

Matt kissed my shots better. #nastybeard

Last Nighttime shin dig. #LOVETHEM

I LOVE THE POOL!!!

shots

8 immunizations+1 malaria prescription+ a weeks worth of typhoid tablets+1 hr mosquito bashing lecture+a peach dum dum=One step closer!! 

Came out looking like a wounded soldier, nbd.

no weird side effects yet.. crossing my fingers.

P.S My arms ache

chills

I heard this song a few nights ago for the first time and literally got CHILLS all over. Since then I have listened to it probably close to 100 times. I still have goosebumps when it starts playing! oh my. his voice!!! & the lyrics. and everything!!

"I'd been on her trail for a little while. but that was the night she  broke down & held  my hand."

things I'm glad for

I'm glad my hair is sun bleached.
I'm glad I have the best bosses at BOTH of my jobs.
I'm glad that my passport should be here within 2 weeks. (its about dang time)
I'm glad that late night dips are initiated. (usually by me)
I'm glad my arms are sore.
I'm glad that basically the only thing i've spent money on this summer is gelatas.
I'm glad that i'm free. 
I'm glad my mom cooks dinner. (apparently that's a dying field?)
I'm glad that i teach a lil boy named Gabe how to swim. 
I'm glad that in exactly one month I will be in Ghana!!
I'm glad that things with my summer crush are going swell.
I'm glad that I am close to most of my coworkers. they are seriously the best.
I'm glad i have a dad who will take me to get my shots. (#babyrighthere)
I'm glad that lice preventative shampoo was invented. (I'm seriously so nervous.)
I'm glad that every night as i watch the sun sink down I feel... happy.
happy but also panicked. because i know these orange sunset won't last long enough. (they never do)

 

Also, I can't quite get enough of this song!!

top of the world

"On Top Of The World" 
imagine dragons

 

If you love somebody
Better tell them while they’re here ’cause
They may just run away from you


You’ll never know what went well
Then again it just depends on
How long of time is left for you


I’ve had the highest mountains
I’ve had the deepest rivers
You can have it all but not til you prove it


Now take it in but don’t look down


‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
Waiting on this for a while now
Paying my dues to the dirt
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay
Been holding it in for a while, ‘ay
Take it with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child
I’m on top of the world.


I’ve tried to cut these corners
Try to take the easy way out
I kept on falling short of something


I coulda gave up then but
Then again I couldn’t have ’cause
I’ve traveled all this way for something


Now take it in but don’t look down


‘Cause I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay
Waiting on this for a while now
Paying my dues to the dirt
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay
Been holding it in for a while, ‘ay
Take it with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child
I’m on top of the world.


And I know it’s hard when you’re falling down
And it’s a long way up when you hit the ground
Get up now, get up, get up now. 

This song played on my ipod last night at work right after I had a deep chat with a close friend about doing exactly what you want. Who cares what everyone else thinks? who cares if you don't follow the "norm"?  tell people how you feel about them & be sincere. after all, what do you have to lose? 

PS have I mentioned I'm on top of the world?