nineteen.

nineteen is a solid age. 

after tomorrow I'll never say the words "I'm nineteen" ever again.

that makes me feel melancholy. 

I hope twenty is just as wonderful as nineteen was.

or just my teenage years in general. 

i can't believe they are already over.

i hope the adventures don't stop.

I'm sure i'll look back one day and think "those were the best days of my life." 

because this far they really are.

i loved being a teenager. 

I'm dreading turning twenty years old.

end of story.

swinging on my last day being a teen

"Youth is happy because it has the capacity to see beauty. Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old."

pure bliss

Spring break=

3 of my bestest friends + 26 hours in my trusty nissan driving+ Music jamming+California Living+ Beach Lying+Hotel Stayin'+Wave Ridin'+Roller coaster screaming+ sundress wearing+Trail mix eating+Sore-abs  laughing+Pier restaurant dining+awkward kind of dancin'+strangers meeting'+skin tanning.

safe to say one of my favorite weeks.

& yeah, I'll probably live by the beach someday. that's a fact.

what's on my mind?

What's on my mind you ask?

ok fine. I'll tell you.

ONE THING.

CAL-i-FORN-EYE-AYE (California)

I leave in exactly 17 1/2 days and I am just freaking out with excitment.

Why?

#1 I have the winter blues. It's cold, it's dark. I HATE all my winter clothes. basically nothing the beach can't solve.

#2 I'm sick of school. I love my classes, hate the work.

#3 I need a lil adventure. My life lately is prett-y predictable. school.drive.work.exercise.eat.homework.sleep. REPEAT

#4 I get to experience my first official "road trip" with some of my favorite gals. they are pretty really crazy so it's a good match.

#5 I started putting together a road trip mix that is off.the.heezy.

#6My mom bought me the cutest bohemian handband today and I CAN'T wait to wear it.

#7My legs are dying to get out of jeans and see some fresh air!

This is where we will be residing.

and last one.

 California is one of my favorite places on earth.

rant

Cleary, I am doing an excellent job at the february photo challenge..uhh okay not really at all. but at least i got one day in there. that should count for something. 

N-E wayzzzz life is terrific lately. Lots of homework, which means lots of library time. Which is a bit depressing but  I also think the library is quite serene. so you win some you lose some.

Nothing extrememly drastic has taken place recently.. 

well okay except for one thing. 

I've decided I want to change my major... again. Yep I'm one of those average students that change their major five times before picking the right one. I swore i would never be that average. buuttt you gotta do what makes you happy. And lately, that has been heavily on my mind. 

doing what makes ME happy. 

This time in my life, that i am in RIght now,  is so short. 

I'm sure i'll look back one day and wish I appreciated it more. 

But the thing is, I DO appreciate it. I love everything about it. 

Even the challenges and the fear of the unknown. 

So that's what I am really going to focus on. Living college life the exact way that I would like. 

No one can write my story except for myself.

I don't have to go to the party that everyone expects me to. if i really don't want to go,  i won't. 

I'll worry more about becoming an esteemed intellectual. (big words)

I'll worry  about meeting new people and experiencing new things.  

experiencing all the thrilling things this big world has to offer me. 

Because that's what makes me happy.

Welp, there is my shhpp-ill. 

Life is so good. 

*just a side note. 

Criminal Justice will be my claimed major

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Day 1

My View today.

FUN

did i?

Did I ever tell you about that one night? You know, one of the most serene nights of summer for me?

It was just your average Friday. I had worked long and hard the week before and finally had a day off.

Of course i decided to spend my day at Willard Bay. Soaking up just a little MORE sun. (as if my skin hadn't seen enough already) 

It was a beautiful day on the lake. my ideal way to spend a summer afternoon.

I came home with sandy, freckled brown skin smelling like sunscreen. mm how i long for that smell again.

Back to the story

.I was exhausted.  so I took a little nap, well more like a three hour nap. 

I woke up around 8pm to find an empty house and a restless body.

Unfortunately my friends were either working or busy that night. Not that i really tried to get a hold of them anyway.I just assumed.

My "boyfriend" (i hate that term) had just left for South Africa and i was missing him a teeny bit.

Afterall, I had spent most free, summer nights with him. I really didn't feel like staying home.

So I put on my fav. shorty shorts, a wide tee and tried to tame my unruly waves with my African headband.

I got in the trusty nissan and put my "summer 2011" mix tape on repeat.

I drove to Ogden & got a black cherry gelata. (the best treat in the world)

It was just me. alone. 

and I have never felt so invincible. so carefree. so alive. 

so.. blissful.

The sun had just dropped behind the mountain and the sky was turning a vibrant orange.

I had the sun roof open and that warm, sticky summer air was healing to my skin. 

I sang along to my music at the top of my lungs.
I had this bittersweet feeling that I was growing up. summer was slowly leaving.
things were about to change, but only for the better.
& indeed they did.

I can't wait for another Serene Summer Night. just like that one.

i took this from the freeway on that same evening.

photo

Photo reenactment anyone?

yep we saw this picture and loved it. then i said to myself. "I practically have those same shirts." so me and my homegirl decided to reenact it. awesome.. right? let's just say it made it to the top of the face book news feed. success.