good habits

Lately I've established some pretty good habits in my life. (not to brag) But I have noticed a BIG difference since I have became a little more serious about things I have meant to be serious about for awhile now.
namely:
Going to bed at a decent time. no more all nighters with our fav. neighbors. I feel so much better during the day and I know my body is grateful.
Exercising errrday. I actually have never been too shabby at this one. but it can seriously make my whole day no matter how bad i hurt afterward.
Talking to Someone new. sometimes during the semester i get into this habit where i sit in the same place next to the same people every day. but this semester i've really tried to talk to or sit by someone i wouldn't normally. I've met some pretty rad people.
Reading more specifically text books and scriptures. which have both surprised me with their interesting- ness.
Doing what I want ha i guess i've always been a little good at this. but lately if i  wanna do somethin', well, I do it. & I'm usually glad i did.
Laughing errrrrrrday.until I can feel my stomach muscles tightening. that's what i aim for.

The new year and semester have been treating me pretty.darn.well. I have nothing to complain about. Well except that it is soooooo cold outside. so cold. I get to class with snot frozen to my face and i feel dumb. but NBD as they say.  I just keep telling myself   "Someday. Someday I will have my degree and be making bank and by then I can live in the warmest city, right on the coast and I can sit on my porch in my swimsuit and watch the sun turn orange over the ocean and  it will ALL be worth it." I think.

sometimes

Sometimes..

I take pictures of myself while driiving. pretty sure that's not safe. or cool. but i really do love car window lighting. mm hmm

I listen to this song over & over & over. it makes me melt with joy.

one word.

ever heard of this whole one word business? yeah, i hadn't really either.

turns out it is pretty legit.

I'm a freak and love setting new years resolutions a lot, alot.

So i thought i would switch things up a bit and also pick ONE word

to work on through out the year. to focus on during the year.to incorporate into everything that i do. to strive everyday to remember.

& the word is...

......................

zeal·ous/ˈzeləs/

Adjective:	Having or showing zeal.
Synonyms:	ardent - enthusiastic - eager - fervent - keen - earnest   full of, characterized by, or due to zeal;  ardently active, devoted, or diligent.

2011 questionairre

i found these year in review questions online. it really made me think. maybe you should fill one out yourself.

In 2011

I gained more knowledge, happiness and new friends.

I lost my brand new camera and favorite cardigan.

I stopped caring so much what people think.

I started dressing exactly how i want & staying up way too late.

I was hugely satisfied by hard workouts,cafe rio sweet pork and new friends.

And frustrated by trying to decide what to do with my life.

I am so embarrassed that I had to run after the shuttle one morning to get to class. hahah

Once again, I pushed people away.

Once again, I did not do what everyone thought i would.

The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is my hair is lighter and my abs are stronger. ha

I loved spending time with people who didn't care what anyone thought of them.

Why did I spend even two minutes writing letters to dbag?

I should have spent more time studying.

I regret buying a new camera that i lost 2 weeks later. :(

I will never regret buying freaking cute clothes even though with that money I could have bought food.

I over analyzed way too much.

I didn’t appreciate the moment enough.

People & copy-cats drove me crazy.

Was obama crazier than ever last year? Or was it me?

The most relaxing place I went was the backyard hammock overlooking all of logan.

I feel so happy when I write that down.

Why did I go to work so often?

The best thing I did for someone else was care about them.

The best thing I did for myself was let go of people and things that made me unhappy.

The best thing someone did for me was listen. & leave.

The one thing I’d like to do again, but do it better, is Laugh everyday until I can't breathe.


For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice. - T.S. Eliot

Cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right. - Oprah Winfrey

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months! - Edward Payson Powell

2011 highlights

2011 has been a splendid year. A lot of changes. a lot of growth. An extreme amount of laughter with a tad bit of crazy. Adventures with new friends and bonding time with old ones. Growing up while still feeling so young & alive. with bold style and daring decisions. Love and happiness all along the way. I'm sad to say goodbye to this year but excited to see what 2012 has in store!

January

moved apartments. started spring semester. new classes. new people. girls night. shopping for moms bday.

February

Bought a CAR! (a nice one) weekend trip to SLC. roomate bonding time.more school work.

March

spring break road trip. cold days. game nights.

April

turned 19 years old. felt like i was growing up too fast. Spent Easter with the fam. ♥

May

took finals. moved HOME. started lifeguard training. spent time with friends. plenty of sista shopping trips.

June

swim lessons err' day. enjoyed warm days in the sun. cool nights with best friends. lots of farewells.

July

more goodbyes. more hot sun. bear lake trip. crazy nights at the pool. letter writing. time with family galore. summer moving way too fast.

August

trip to cali and the beach. more pool. bon fires. shopping trips. Serene sunsets by the lake. changes. Zeepe's runs often.

September

moved back to Logan. Fell in love with college life. met loads of new people. morning runs.dance parties.too many late nights and not enough studying.

October

bike rides. football games. treat night. new adventures. movies with our fav. neighbors. more late nights and laughter.  

November

became true aggie. more new adventures. Frequent DI trips. new music and style.
Basked in thanksgiving wonderful-ness.

December

took finals. (and did record good) Had the best Christmas break anyone could ask for!!!!

complete with yummy food, wonderful family, crazy friends & let's not forget a new iphone! 
 

false impressions

on the outside. brave. outgoing. risk-taker. thrill seeker. tough.carefree.

on the inside. scared. safe. quiet. careful. worrier.cautious.

Ever wonder if sometimes people have a false sense of who you reallly are? Last night while out with friends someone said to me "Maddy, you're the craziest of us all. Why are you acting so worried? (he was referring to my reaction after some crazy driving stunt he was trying to pull)
Yes i may have over-reacted  by yelling STOP over & over again, but seriously??
I'm all about having fun. Heck, it's what I live for. But when it comes to SAFETY,(especially MY safety) that's another story. I HATE feeling like i don't have control in all situations. Especially when it comes to potential hazard. Needless to say I was just realllly ready to go home.

truth: I'm not nearly as crazy as i act sometimes. (maybe that's what all crazies say?) & even if people think I am BORING, that's a risk I'm more than willing to take.

p.s did I mention how I EXCITED I am for CHRISTMAS???!!!

Welp I am just sitting here in suspense waiting to take my LAST final. hallelujah! for some reason i am very ahead of schedule so i have some time to kill. (who does that?)

The past 3 weeks or so have been crazy hectics, but oh so enjoyable.

I will be heading back to b-town in approx. 7 hours and of course I am Stoked about that.

I have been in such a Christ-masy mood lately. My mom gave me some decor to deck out our apartment with & it looks so festive. I have taken it upon myself to make SURE everyone feels the christmas spirit. If the lights aren't plugged in & christmas music playing, something is seriously wrong.I just want to sing christmas carols, bake sugar cookies, shop, look at lights, & spend time with family and friends. I absolutely can't wait!

the time suz came to college

Lately we swim.. ALOT.

Late night zeppes run

It was Suz's birthday. she's growing up too fast.

Love my mom's old christmas sweaters

Going to a hipster concert. We wore flannel to be cool

Our cute christmas tree

We watched some dumb boys jump in the freezing dam.