over {freaking} whelmed

I have so many weird feelings going on inside me. 

• trying to finish my last "to do" items
• wrapping my brain around the fact that in 8 days I'll be on a plane to the other side of the world
• wondering what it will be like not seeing my family & friends for 2 1/2 months
• dreading goodbye for two years with a certain someone
• trying to pack only what i "need" and not what i want. (really tough for me)
• making sure my schedule will fit everything i want to do/everyone i want to see before i take off. 
• budgeting my poor savings account 
• shopping for mosquito nets, bug sprays, etc.
• visiting the doctor for my last couple shots. (seriously any more and my arm will fall right off.)

I just keep reminding myself  "This is what you want. It will be worth it."    

& I seriously hope it is.

dusk and summer

"Nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer."

last one

I did it.

 My last summer bucket list item was "ride on the back of a stranger's motorcycle." 

& last night, on the very last night of summer, I did it. It feels good. 

Last night I was in Logan visiting my sista and some of my bffs who are living in the SAME apartment complex i lived in all of last year. It was hard core deja vu.

 But honestly, I was so glad I knew i didn't have to stay in Logan.
although i'm reallllllllly going to miss living in the same town as my sister and bffffs.

 I'm doing exactly what I want to and I'll never look back.

uh uh uh uh

Take a little looksy at this gem that arrived in the mail today! only cost me $72.72 to have it overnight-ed. bargain? pssh. Yeah right.

 But I was too happy when i got it to even think what it cost me. Literally took it out of the envelope and hugged it as tight as i could.

 

& yes it's 2 in the morning but this is reallllllly exciting to me. okay? 

last weekend

The last weekend of summer is always a really depressing time to me. I start feeling homesick and reminiscent and absolutely dread the fall rolling in. 

For the past two years i have been moving over this weekend and can i just tell you how nice it is NOT to be doing that? I think the fact that I will be seeing a different part of the world this fall instead of sitting in a classroom is the one thing that is keeping me from breaking down about summer ending.

But before i get too sad I still have three more days to live to the absolute fullest!!!

bucket list

My Summer Bucket list has been extremely successful this year. like extremely. I have done almost everything I have wanted to. Buttttt there is just one more thing. & It's a big one. & it's important. & I think I have to do it tonight if I want to cross it off the list. also it takes a lot of guts. so i'm nervous. But I've gotta do it, & I will. (Putting on my brave face as i type this) 

ps I'll share my bucket list items as soon as the last one gets crossed off!

pooool days

Well this place was my home for the summer once again and the truth is, I'm not quite ready to say goodbye to it. Safe to say this year has been my favorite. (but then again i say that every year) 

I love that my coworkers are so fun and crazy. we laugh all day and play all night. 

what could be better? 

 

Watchin the summer sun fall out of sight

Gabe taught me "the cool kids" pose. i owe him big time.

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clearly we are the cool ones

"show your bum a little"

LOVED teaching navy k in mom &tots

typical jameson

"We were so alive never felt more free"

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#summertimecrush #youngerthanme #SUEME

famous awkward hug all summer long

Jay is our very fav.

Matt kissed my shots better. #nastybeard

Last Nighttime shin dig. #LOVETHEM

I LOVE THE POOL!!!

shots

8 immunizations+1 malaria prescription+ a weeks worth of typhoid tablets+1 hr mosquito bashing lecture+a peach dum dum=One step closer!! 

Came out looking like a wounded soldier, nbd.

no weird side effects yet.. crossing my fingers.

P.S My arms ache